Pushing Buttons

I think I am PMS-ing. Fatigue, emotional, cranky and all stressed up. Which explains why I wasn't able to update the past few days. I have been sleeping. I can nap for two to three hours when Chester naps in the morning or afternoon and still be able to knock out by 10ish or 11. Amazing! If not sleeping, I was watching a movie or something to unwind. On top of PMS-ing, having two kids constantly pushing my buttons has caused emotional turmoil. Which then also explains why I am so sleepy all the time. My brain just needed a lot of rest. I am glad I get those rest to function. Doing the best I can to take care of myself.

First, let's talk about Chester. He is 18 months old now. His social skills, for some strange reason, has worsen. 

He gets extremely uncomfortable with strangers and doesn't like to mingle with other kids. He wasn't like that just two months ago when I brought him to Sunday nursery during Sunday service. I brought him to my new church today and hang out at the mother's room with a few other kids and he refused to mingle and just sat on my lap and fuss about. 

He seems to have a mind of his own lately too. Wherever we go, he will just want to go elsewhere. It makes doing grocery shopping, shopping for stuff and getting errands done very challenging. 

Oh, and don't get me started on his tantrums as well. I almost dropped him head down onto the floor once because he was throwing his tantrum while I was carrying him. 

He doesn't go to his toy rack and toy boxes anymore but instead walks straight to the kitchen, calling me to hand over kitchen utensils, cups, mugs and any other things I would allow him to play with. 

Then, his sister, tweening big time. She is constantly challenging me these days, trying to outsmart me and say things to hurt me. I have read it and I know she is wired to be like this. It's a FEW YEAR PHASE! But going through it is so much harder than I get to read from the book. Long story short, the struggle is real. Now, moms with teenage daughters who are done with that phase are my heroes.

As much as I complained about this struggle, I think about it again why go through this. What's the point? I got away easier with Scarlett when she was little as I was a working mom and my helper took most of the hits. Technically speaking, Chester is the first child I actually get to have full on, hands on, momsie experience. Now, full time moms with no helpers are my heroes too. I guess all I can conclude is that being able to go through two different types of motherhood allows me to feel for more moms out there. I used to think it wasn't that difficult but now I don't. I used to think motherhood was easy breezy for me as I had an easy child (Scarlett) who is smart, calm and adapted to this thing called life so easily, but now I don't because Chester is anything but easy. 

Life throws us curveballs.

His favourite play now is cooking. Must be watching me cooking too much in the kitchen.

Chez, our little drama king