Can't Adult Today

On the second day of Chinese New Year, we went to my parents-in-law's place for 开年饭. It was another similar feast and let me make it clear, we don't eat like this everyday. It is only because it is Chinese New Year. Our family is quite small compared to others but my parents-in-law are very traditional, therefore Chinese New Year is a big deal to them. They want to make these few days feel more abundant, so we feast. Apart from feasting, we also goof around with the kids. 

This year, my eldest sis-in-law brought along a wig as Scarlett wanted to play with it. We all took turns wearing it and laughed at ourselves silly. Well, not all, my father-in-law and Chester did not wear it. The best photo was this. People always said Allan look exactly like his eldest sis, I used to think so too when we were dating. However, I think they have both aged differently and no longer look as similar as before. 

Allan is a "no fuss man". He doesn't apply anything to his face, doesn't visit a hair stylist and just wanted an "any cut" that I can pull off at home and doesn't go to the gym other than playing football on Saturdays. He is probably quite lucky to end up the way he is now. Security guards have mistaken my mother-in-law as his elder sister and both my sister-in-laws as his younger sisters. He claimed that that is because he is taller than all of them. We always laughed about it. 

As we are not allowed to visit anybody this year,  I took the time to rest and napped as much as I can at home. I even craved for alcohol to relax and unwind. Nevertheless, my tummy has been the luckiest. Apart from my mother-in-law's family feast, Allan also brought me out for dinner last night, leaving the kids with his parents. 

 糖心鲍鱼

开年饭!! The kind of group photo you get because we forgot our selfie stick

I needed a break from the little guy. Allan knows and a dinner with him alone saves the day. Over the last couple of days, Chester has drained out all the energy I have left to basically function as a human, much less a loving wife or mother. Or was it the yummy chicken I ate during our gathering dinner? Whatever. I just could not adult anymore.

After dinner, we picked the kids up from my in-laws only to find out from them that Chester has been behaving very well, ate all the food he was given and not thrown any tantrums. He has been spitting out food lately and the food my mother-in-law fed him was half made up of what I cooked. Anybody knows why kids spit out food? It is not that he doesn't like it, it is the same kind of food I make all the time. Sometimes I feel really clueless. Sometimes I feel it is just me he is up against. I know I sound silly. But that's truly how he makes me feel.

Over dinner, we tried not to talk about the kids but suddenly, a little girl around Chester's age started throwing tantrum and rolled on the restaurant floor. We looked with compassion and we definitely did not judge. Allan said, "See, it is perfectly normal for him to behave like this sometimes." Not comforting enough but good enough for the evening.

Just a couple of hours away from Chester helped me "reform" myself to carry on what it needs to function for today. It will just keep going on like this till perhaps one day, I am able to master this so-called Motherhood thing.

Heading towards mid life crisis with a toddler is tricky. Very tricky.