New Toys

The rain did not stop Allan and myself from heading to Ikea today. We dropped the kids off with their grandparents and drove to Ikea for lunch. It was nice to be able to just spend time with Allan without the kids.

We got the kids a new tent and Chester was the first to plunge into the tent filled with balls. He was ecstatic and it was hilarious to watch. He went to the point not even wanting to share the tent with Scarlett but submitted to it later. We also got him some new wooden toy cars as the ones he is playing with now are hand me downs.

Somedays, I feel my life has been so consumed by these two kids and there seem to have nothing left inside me that really is about me anymore. When these days hit me, I feel a little miserable. I hate the thought of losing myself yet every moment of the day, I seem to be. I miss doing things I like. I miss having time to myself to just enjoy a cup of coffee instead of gulping my hot coffee down the throat every morning in the kitchen because Chester will be screaming for me. I miss being alone, I don't mean lonely, but alone. I know it is truly a blessing to have children and be able to spend time with them, but sometimes, it does get a little overwhelming and I need to time out.

Today is a good time out day. Being away from them for even just few hours, feels...so...good!!!

I think the tent is here to stay for awhile.

Lunch at Ikea this afternoon wasn't too bad. They are serving pork knuckle now. I ordered one and it was huge, so I gave half to Allan. The skin was very crunchy but a little too hard for my liking. The meat was soft and moist though. Give it a try if you happen to go Ikea shopping. It's really cheap.